THE WITHERING TREE

And Finally She lay clasped in my longing arms, the moment stood still, spell bounded by her charm. With arms, legs, lips clinging to embrace In front of me was the prettiest face. Her eyes met mine, her lips touched my lips. My heart went flutterng with that sensuous kiss. What happened after that, no one is to blame, Burning in our heart was a different kind of flame. To be with her was my forlorn and longing desire, bothering me in all these years, She now had same kind of fire.

And there I was standing on my own grave, mulling over the relation which I could not save. So i started digging my own past, Thinking of the time where I could not play my part. This act of mine turned out to be my biggest mistake, Life once gone is gone, there is no retake. A book once closed is better closed forever, But I started reading it again with my heart full of prayer. Wishing in my heart that I can change the contents of the book, or at least deceive someone by giving it a new look.

I have always loved you since i was nineteen, where in my heart i gave you place of my queen. My love for you since then has ever got stronger nothing can shake it- no storm, no thunder. I planned to marry you when i was twenty six, But there were misundertandings which i could not fix. What I had was a male ego, and you decided one day to just go. One day i will make you realize that you are mine Even if that means exile of 14 years and i be thirty nine. I will make u feel my feeling and re enter your heart like a king. Even if that means a long long wait, when my hair turns grey or i am sixty eight, MY LOVE FOR YOU SHALL NEVER ABATE.

Like a cactus which feeds on minimal quantity of water, Life has become a dark affair which i hope to extend no further. Soaring ten feets above the ground, the cactus collects its own drop, which allows cactus to drag its life for another year. My life has now become similar to that crop, The void formed in my heart is too much to bear. left in darkness to feed on few crumbs of food, and warmth that I get by burning of wood. I feel the pain of million of cactus prickling, when someone mention that the sun is shining. Then why at my place is the fire burning? Yes, I cannot see and now have to spend my life in dark, but has my mind also gone numb and cannot feel the sun's warmth? Suddenly, I hear the sound of prayer and toll of bell. The sounds must be coming from the nearby temple. I think I have heard it before and i know that voice I have heard it zillion of times. But there was a turmoil in my mind as how can the voice be of the same kind Things are meant to be different for me....

Latest news is that there is reduction in onion's price which has proved for government as blessing in disguise. Now they claim to have negative inflation The most important person in office here is a peon They attribute this to "Right To Equality" in our nation The cases of rapes are exponentially rising. They still claim that INDIA is shining. Even if the future of women here is bleak With all enthusiasm we celebrate women's empowerment week. People kill other people to vent out theit frustartion. Still they call it to be land of meditation Where A plate of chikkan tikka is a reason of someone's death "Art of living" teahes us how to take breath Where majority of newspaper is filled with upcoming event of cricket Our boxing sensation is asked to show his certificite land of scams, land of traffic jams, and we fondly call it land of LORD RAM

Between you and me there lies aeons of sepration, Who can even imagine that togather we used to have so much fun, where is that cool breeze, where is that drizzling rain, All my efforts to get you back went in vain. The moments I wanted to spend with you are now gone, The path I wanted to cover with you, I covered alone. Life seems to be engulfed in silence. I can no more feel your presence, My breath is no more filled with your fragrance. Wonder whether i would be able to see the brightness of full moon, Whether the caterpillar will ever gain the strength to break its cocoon.

Now when the year 2010 has ended, I thought somethings needed to be amended, There laid a bookshelf in corner of my room, to clean the mess i went there with a broom. there were books some read, some unread some partially read which i could not comprehend. Suddenly my cell vibrated and gave me a shiver, i took it out from my pocket and removed its cover. i purposely kept it in cover to protect its sheen, "no space for new message" were the words displayed on its screen. The inbox were flooded with mesaages, of which some were read, some unread,some not worth to be read and some re-read Lolz, the messages were gud not that i was not able to comprehend. Thank GOD Gmail comes with a feature of spam box which fillters the unethical messages from coming into inbox. This gmail is a perfect way of advertizing and has got amazing features The inbox always boast of mails from people giving out various offers. and for me that remains part of the mailbox that is never opened, but then t...